honestly tell me that its over

today was quite monotonous,
left school for subway though school officially ends 4+ (dnt take chinese and was erm, too ill to go for geog haha) with ah man, charmaine and pri sch friend haha. i think it was more productive than being in school! and we could talk freely unlike the constraints of being under the nose of scary sa teachers who just explode when you start whispering :|

then met tings, sylvia and friend for a while..only talked crap and freaked out over econs test tmrw :( im so dead, dr! :(

and right now,
i dont think im okay.
why are you doing this to me
SIGH.

dont leave me stranded

Remember me
Feels like forever
Since the days
When we were friends
I don't understand
All these changes
I'm still the same
No need to pretend

Where'd it go
Do you know
Maybe it just doesn't matter

'Cause when i try to talk to you
I feel like I'm not getting through you
Where did we go wrong
It's hard to be strong
When I talk to you

There were times
In the beginning
When you were there
When I needed you most
We'd sit and talk
About the future
And laugh about
Us getting old

Do you know
How it feels
I hope that you know that it matters

But when i try to talk to you
I feel like I'm not getting through you
Where did we go wrong
It's hard to be strong

When I talk to you
I want you to know everything that I am
Don't want to know what life would be without you

When i try to talk to you
I feel like I'm not getting through you
Where did we go wrong
It's hard to be strong
When I talk to you

please dont lose me in the crowd

today was qt a :) day,
despite having a 3 hour mind boggling sesh of math tuition which helped me maybe a tad..i absolutely loathe a.p + g.p!! ugh. am still very foggy about applying the concept on the problem sums. and im feeling rather awful that im not doing my work like i ought to! :|

okay anyway point is
i met tings! :D :D met her and syl at ps, they were lunching at ajisen. then we did our brows and dragged our lazy asses to wisma! got a proj shop top and she got the bag i wanted, im gonna get it another day hahah up to our usual identical stuff again, haha. saw don + brendan on the way!

then got her biotherm, and walked ALL around, getting food for famished+greedy me and also met hwing and -, hahah. AND will people jst fuck it with the rumours. its very pissing hearing all these sadly preposterously lame and completely untrue gossips flying all around. she is NOT a flirt or blah blah. shut your mouths for a moment and think about other people's feelings for god's sake. check your facts. and think about how your flippant words affected and hurt people. okay im getting quite worked up but this is so ironic, the same situation applies for sajc. whatever la. after going to jc i realised people can be so shockingly fake to your face esp whn they dnt evn knw shit about you. okay okay whatever. grr. im getting very annoyed.

moving on,
we went to her place after spending like, 4hours in town (majority of the time spent walking around getting FOOD) doing practically nth excpt get a few items and EAT..was superb talking for hours :) am loving and missing that girlie very much, lao peng you! :D theres always something to talk and laugh about, whether its something mighty exciting or exhilerating or something mellow. ac sounds fun! am very happy for you :) and thrs a straight bus from my house to hers! and the same bus goes to cj too. and j8, where i mostly meet ree, and also to steph's place! am jst amazed by ths similarity in route. and The Bus is, 156! yay, super bus. okay whatever wendy. but isnt it amazing!

anyhoo,
ystd i went queensway w sam, charmaine and lynette..got my adidas shoes! for running! nw jiang wont mock me for falling down in my 'Barbie Doll' shoes (my gallaz arent barbie at all, i dont knw why people kp..labelling me with these yikesy terms that nvr happened bfore whn i ws happily in st nicks/cj okayokay but For Fun yes i am kelly, barbie's daughter :((((() then met hwing, had dinner at the turk restaurant, a certain Swaku girl hasnt heard of it bfore haha and she Ms Piggyly went and had chicken rice right after that! hahah and btw im secretly very impressed with her netball skills..like every ball gets in! :O

hrm, soccer match in sa was pretty exciting, haha

lynette and her greenie, no1 in her heart :D :D okay shes gna kill me if she ever stalks me and reads ths..

and yes, had a mini talk w jien and maylene, would like to let out my frustrations and announce im straight as a straight line and erm, i cannot help it tht my gesticulating and actions are b (as mentioned above) :|

shall not talk abt ths anymore,
tings & syl cheer up! :)

argh. math test on thurs, math tutorial and ecoMs hmwk to be handed in on monday.
ladidadumsy :(

btw, congrats cj dance for excellently clinching a gold in syf dance and being placed 3rd in dancworks!! highly wow :) da, am very happy for+proud of you :)

sam, ah man ive been very consciously implementing the before 6 rule. but the thing is, i have been STUFFING myself before 6!! rahh..nono, cannot close dwn, its the last year we cn enjoy the food! and you wont exactly want to hv no prata / nasi lemak / western food etc dyou!? hahah. anw did you find your arena in the end? hw was polo?

ELE! why did you text me!! what happened dear girl?!? -hugs.

hwing dno whn you'll get to read ths, with your laopok comp :| but anyway im glad you guys talked things through :) am really happy for you :D :D

i realise i kp feeling very happy for people
i dont evn know hw i feel anymore.
okay whatever.
not in the mood for melancholicness,
night everyone! :)

// no, she doesnt know what shes missin

rumour mill

gp sucks, got a very boring teacher and im very bored..
and btw, all rumours are not true!
-rolls eyes.
whatever.

you forget where the heart is

as usual, time has been flying by zzz
i cant exactly recall what ive been doing!
probably some random stuff :|

anw our slack period has ended :(
just got our timetable ystd,
no more attending lectures when we feel like it, or STUFFING ourselves with food (okay scratch that, we still do), or being sporty_galzZ or playing cards..or slacking in the sc, flipping magazines and enjoying the aircon whenever we please..

today was too dreary and brain boggling,
strictly math and econs for the entire morning
was too much for me to bear!
jiang went BALLISTIC, we all were highly annoyed with the math lecturer, cussing and swearing as we popped our heads trying to decipher all the sums laid before our eyes. haha alas the situation improved..but only toward the end of the lesson. and it wasnt too long before we got confused by another question again. rahh, i hate math!!
and i was wearing my specs and looking like some freak / nerd / bo shi (professor), oh gross. but whatever, no eye candy to be wary of. hahah. anw the point is i always feel migraine-ish / sickly after wearing specs and today was no exception :(

and i cant believe i ate THREE palm size char siew baos and FOUR fat juicy har gaus at crystal jade just now! im mortified and aghast with myself. ugh :(
FAT BITCH.
tmrw i shall go for either hockey or touch rug and feel less guilty.
:( :(

ystd i went ikea for lunch cum dinner. and had haagen dazs too. goodness gracious! :| gossiped (tsk tsk) till the rain slacked off and went to this girl's house to play soccer..erm. i was stretching and accidentally whacked off some random seashell decoration off the wall. yikes. im so sorry! anyway i decided that i really dont like soccer (boring!) so i shall not join that..

went to steph's place in the evening and we watched her favourite episode of the oc :D :D was very sticky and gross (played bball, ran a few rounds, played frisbee and ran after a bus, being such sporty galzz :|) and she, sickly and cold, so we were both so grouchy and looney (she was looney, swooning over some random OLD AND AGED hongkong drama serial, claiming it was VERY SWEET ?!?!?! and also annoying the hell out of me, so i sat there and frowned at her through it all hahah) it took us a while to get our asses off the couch. after we both bathed and smelt nice and felt better, we went to her club..had sandwich and studied a bit..nice ambience :) apart for the fact that we felt like we were doing homework in someone's kitchen. (insert perplexed look here haha)

was practically sleep walking all the way back. lids couldnt attempt to defy gravity at all. YAWN.

oh!
suddenly rememebered about cj gossip (okay gossip sounds negative, i shall label them as news..) / news ive been hearing..and i realise
people are so unpredictable and FAKE,
everything changes,
rumours are just flying around
but some of it so untrue! makes my blood boil just hearing them..
hrmpf.

anyway.
wiffa! hope youre feeling better :) its always the best to think things through right? love!

tings HMRPF. hahah. love you la. meet up soon okay?!??!?! -glares!!

i need hair accesories! theyve mysteriously vanished once again..

i hate math :(
and i have 2.5hrs of free period ALONE, me myself and i.
loner / nerd / bo shi !! >:(
i shall try and configure the mystery of math.

okay just ignore me, im randomly ranting. very sleepy!

alrighty. mini's fully charged.
off!

have fun in school, eveyone !!

way AWAYY

so much has happened
-winks ESPECIALLY at hwing
TEEHEE.
im so excited for her, the thought of her and - makes me smile like a retard. though im far away in sa :D spread the love! hahah.

and in case youre wondering, i dont care anymore anyway. theres no need for avoidance. im so disappointed.

anyway. i got the sa foolscap (2 of each kind) and econs notes, gna get the lit books and math stuff (and also the once a saint always a saint stickman shirt) tmrw..hpefully they'll take me outta my first 3 mths mode! very terrible, the way im still happily in neverland. haha. anyhow, just discovered not too long ago that sa has good food so me, jiang, lynnette, samantha and charmaine have been stuffing ourselves with all the delish and sinful food. food, glorious food! BUT! i shall exercise some discipline frm tmrw onward and go on a diet :| the sa uniform already makes me look fat enough!! and it doesnt help that the buses take us to ikea (MEATBALLS!!), holland v (WIDE variety) etc etc. goodness gracious me. AND theres no pe yet!! i can feel yet another kg of fats being formed and wobbling about on my thighs!! i mean, theyr already ARE my thighs!! ahh..

okay, me and my endless wails.

been to a few lectures here and there, but also skipped some..-looks at jiang!! grr. all her fault. haha okay she'll kill me in school and annoy me endlessly..like she always does everyday. but seriously, i think shes been like, my sunshine :) she helped me accept and adapt to sa, so i shall kindly excuse her irritating traits (ENDLESS mockery :|) and talk to her HAHA

anyway we've been playing volleyball!! i really like it though i suck and people keep laughing at me (as always..for example mahjong / bridge) BUT STILL, (sam's always worse than me HAHA kd) its very satisfying whn you whack the ball over with all your might! ystd i whacked it over to 2nd floor of the hall and had to go through some trouble getting it back. oh wello. anyway that place reminds me of the 'office box' thingy in the cj audi, which reminds me of rockafella, which reminds me of..hrm. rahh, i still miss cj! but i suppose sa's alright la. hpe things will get better..

had early dinner at ikea just now..YUMMYLISH!! :D :D very happy and contented now. hahah swedish meatballs, cream of mushroom, triple choc cake, kids pasta..ooh. hahah and we went on yet another expedition! (did i mention the prev one ws to ths cult tunnel??) near the gilton food centre theres the bali resort thingy. damn funky and cool!! but lots of mosquitoes. and we crossed ths bridge to alexander point. HAHA we're so hip..wasted trip la! no desserts :( went back to school for nata de coco (which i almost died eating) and had math make up. shall be meeting tings tmrw :D havent seen that babe in a very very long time! since ice age! okay tht ws random..we're gonna catch eye10, hopefully there's the timeslot for it. and we shall catch up! :D

sammie HELLO! :) msn?

karina shall we holland v ; crystal jade + party w us soon..!

alrighty. shall get back to adding new songs in my pinkie baby
hoho :D

i dont wanna fall to pieces
just wanna sit and stare at you

cookie craze @ coffeeclub rocks pls
FREAKING FAB. ws in heaven for like, 5 split seconds, savouring it all
:D

getting my ipod tmrw, am mighty excited!!
forgot about my disgusting zits for a bit.
ahh! i wonder hw does the 2nd generation's pink looks like. havent checked it out yet..

anyway met hwing today IM VERY SORRY FOR MY LATENESS..ths bad habit is worsening, very bad! mst be all the influence frm steph. haha anway we dropped by in town for FAB lunch @ taka pasta house or club or dno wht, i forgot. damn bloated! bought my paul frank bag already! im so hyped! :D :D haha then we went to her pasir ris house and played cards..fortune telling HAHA so rubbishy. and she managed to persuade me to play pool..hahah so funny! and i quite like the game. i cant believe myself! i had developed such deep aversion for pool but ive now joined the club :| though i still am very sucky at it, ive come to realise the thrill of exhileration whn my ball goes in, hahah. talked and laughed a lot, I LOVE YOU HWING! have you checked your tagboard / lovesuicide??

after that went to meet ele :) talked a lot, like quite non stop. especially when waiting to enter the compound for sff. oh by the way, their legs are like WOW. -jaw drops. and the black model's rib cage was like, PROTRUDING so badly. i felt like i cldnt breathe looking at them. its like, so stretched and wrapped that if she breathes they'll tear through her skin or smth -shudders. but not all models were reed thin..theyre gorgeous!

alrighty. tutoring tmrw :|
night!

so this is how little i mean to you

yikes! my face is infested w zits, im very terribly disgusted w myself! ee.
i have decided to swear off tht chicken rice in sa,
charmaine said it causes pimples!! gasp.

ele, cheer up girl :(

anyway. the orientation ended, ws damn freaking funny. the finale ws fun, gdness :D ths guy got so high he started stripping and stuff! and he ws scrambling ard to get his clothes whn the counsellors pulled him out of the hall. i think sa has really fab plans for orientation, bt its only enjoyable if youre in gd company. hated the class, but i guess im okay with it nw. JY'S APPEAL GOT THROUGH! (okay, jiang la. she thinks its very kiddy of me+karina to call her jy) so shes in my class!! omgness, ths is the BEST thing thts ever happened evr since i got into sa. despite hw she ENJOYS mocking me (sadistic! >:| stp it w my elbow on blue story already!!), shes been really nice and entertaining. hahah. tight tee poor painter.

i would really like so say tht i miss hwing a whole bunch of monkey bananas :(

just saw tht girl today, i miss tht tanned face and her laughter. talked a bit, AHH I LOVE YOU BABE! cheer up abt yknw who. i miss our truth/truth suddenly. gna write you a letter! :D

anyway as i ws saying, today was a total waste of time, shouldve jst ponned..and i really wonder hw im gna survive in future lectures WITHOUT A TABLE attached to the chairs (the tables broke off the attachment to the seats)..been scribbling on my lap, its absolutely mortifying! ugh. cant succumb to recopying my notes everytime :| only went for one lecture, skipped another, and ATE A LOT yikes. then jy, lynette, samantha, charmaine and i went on an expediture SO FREAKY! thrs like, a discreet cult meeting or smth within the compound. -shudders! shall nt elaborate. then jy the guru did fortune telling..cant rmb wht else we did. bt anw went bk cj then met steph..we were both WIDE ASLEEP. we were like, sputtering nonsense to each other. and i sang so loudly to myself in cartel but ws in such a daze i ws completely unaware :| goodness gracious. after much (or little) inner battle, we went back to her house and fell aslp unanimously and suddenly i jolted awake. haha so nw im home!

sigh.
night, all.

dont tell me that its over.